Grief Lingers

Sunday, May 2nd, 2010

Like a bull loose in a china shop, after a child dies everything gets trashed and broken and life is chaos. It takes a long time to get everything back in order, and even when things are mostly put back together, nothing is in exactly the same place. Some valuable ...

Kevin’s 4th Birthday

Saturday, November 7th, 2009

The relentless march of time. That's how I think of it sometimes. We're already to what would have been Kevin's 4th birthday, and I wonder how a year and a half could have gone by so fast. On his last birthday, it was only 6 months after he died and ...

Kevin’s Little Sister

Thursday, August 13th, 2009

On July 18th, Kevin's little sister Ava Marie was born. I wish he could have met her, because she is every bit as cute as he was. He probably would have loved being a big brother. He would have been almost 4 years old now, and I imagine him having big ...

Kevin’s Room

Friday, July 10th, 2009

I've been meaning to write an update for a few weeks but just haven't taken the time to do so... A few weeks ago we took on the inevitable task of cleaning out Kevin's room. We knew it had to be done before the baby was born, but ...

May 2, 2008

Friday, May 1st, 2009

I was talking to Dawn tonight about what was going on in our life exactly a year ago, how the night he died unfolded by the hour, what we were doing and how we were feeling at different times. A short time after Kevin died I wrote down my memories ...

One Year

Thursday, April 30th, 2009

I’ve been writing pieces of this post for months, actually. When I think about what to write – especially at times like the one year mark – I think it’s so easy to be wordy and trite. I’ve written many things and then erased them. The truth is that it’s ...

Grief Retreat

Sunday, April 26th, 2009

When the flier came in the mail, I was sure we would not go. Large groups of people are not generally my thing. I read it anyway and thought about it for a few days. If reading the line about bringing something of your child's to share reduced me to ...

One Year

Friday, April 24th, 2009

As the year anniversary of Kevin's death approaches I have been thinking about my lack of posts on this site. I have left most of that up to Matt. He is a more eloquent writer than I - he seems to put his feelings into words with a skill that ...

Easter

Saturday, April 11th, 2009

Easter was the last holiday we got to spend with Kevin. And now it's here again, which means we've gone through all the "firsts" - as far as holidays go - without him. What I remember about Easter last year was him wandering around looking for eggs, not really ...

Thoughts

Monday, February 2nd, 2009

Today marks 9 months since Kevin died. I continue to write down my personal thoughts, and Dawn thought I should post some of it here too. Monday, January 12, 2009 Sand Castles The last time I was at Emily's therapist, she asked me to tell her a little more about Kevin. I showed ...