Comments on: Comfort

By: Mikki Jaeger

Mikki Jaeger — Thu, 18 Sep 2008 16:46:26 +0000

I happened to go to Kevin’s site in my bookmarked area today and read your postings for August. It’s been a few weeks since I checked it. It took me awhile to get through what you wrote, past the tears I shed thinking of you and Dawn and Emily’s grief. All I could see was Kevin in his cowboy boots running down the hall, laughing, or the video where he was mad and “Duker” got it with all his tiny vented crying scene that day. We miss him too Matt and although we don’t bear the grief you guys have we wish the clock could be turned back, just for some time so we could give him some more loving and watch him experience the world again. Every time we tell your Mom & Dad some silly stuff that 2.5 year old Sarah does we wonder if it might be too painful. The day we recently went over to your Mom’s with Dale & Michelle and the kids we hoped it wouldn’t be too hard on them too. Kearia at 7 still says something about Kevin’s “Day” as she calls it when he got to meet Jesus. She said he’s playing up there gramma, Sarah sees him too. It’s not unusual to see Sarah gazing up into the sky sometimes and she says “Hi” and waves at “someone” that we adults don’t see. The belief is babies “talk’ to angels all the time. I ask her is she is talking to the angels and she says Jesus. So who knows, but it always warms our hearts. It’s a mystery to us who she sees, but it’s with rapt attention as she sits and stares up into the sky and then waves. I like to think maybe sometimes she sees my Dad or sometimes maybe it is Kevin… Someday we will see him again and along with many other loved ones who are waiting just past the gate… God Bless you guys, we love you and your in our prayers for the strength to keep on keeping on… There is no such thing as it gets easier, but instead the memories will always be there…

By: Kristel

Kristel — Thu, 14 Aug 2008 21:32:31 +0000

I read the book shortly after Dawn did. It was heartbreaking and so raw, its hard to even imagine how she was able to put those experiences and feelings on paper. Just reading the prologue brought all the tears back again. I saw Kevin on his commercial today, which always makes me smile and reach out in my heart for him. It will never “be easier”, but as long as we have family and friends, there will be other happy times.

By: Jeni

Jeni — Wed, 13 Aug 2008 19:48:12 +0000

I’m glad the book encouraged you to continue to write. I know many of our friends read what you and Dawn write even if they don’t comment, and they really appreciate hearing stories about Kevin and how you are feeling. I love that Kevin’s site continues as it’s a website I checked daily during his life and now.

I really like the part on grief not being linear. This is something I didn’t expect. As Kevin’s friend it’s unpredictable when I will be hit with sadness. It smells like fall to me right now with the cooler weather and that reminds me of Halloween and Kevin as a skunk and of his birthday.

I though Noah’s birthday would be hard just 20 days after Kevin’s death, but instead I find Lily’s birthday preparations to be more difficult. Lily wants Kevin at her party so badly. She got angry one afternoon when she realized he would not come to her party. I finished her birthday video, and she loves watching the silly video and pictures of her buddy Kevin. His memory lives on in even his youngest of pals.